February 7, 2011
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nth special today. stayed at hospital for whole day. I even smell like i m in the hospital when i m home. my clothes caught the smell. when i do the IV. i just look up on the ceiling half sleep, feels like i m dreaming. saw my grandpapa talking with me. after I done the IV, I just hv no idea what i can do w/ his condition now. got nth inside my head all white out. I feel so helpless. feel so sorry for my grandpapa. I can do nth nothing to help him. all the ppl around me sayin he is dyin... what can i do?! FOR SURE I wouldnot cry in front of those stupid family members! I SWEAR TO GOD U GUYZ GOT NO CHANCE
grandpapa. i know what you want me to do. i can feel it, dun worry i will be there for you. I love you!
